Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Me, the ex-blonde princess!!!

Yesterday morning I received a lovely email from a seller on ebay. We had sent each other a couple of emails because I bought a vintage jacket( one of my soft spots...vintage clothing...ooopssss) and in my signature there were my websites, youtube, myspace and sellaband.
So the seller replies back,Anastasia is her name telling me that she checked my website and then she starts writing so many things things that really made me feel well.
She said my music touched her heart and that she had no words to express what she was feeling then. she wrote that she agreed with my vision of life and that she found my videos amazing!

I have to tell you,t with so many people on youtube that only watch superficially or never bother to get to read your profile and really understand who you are, it was a very nice surprise to know of someone that,by accident saw my youtube page and decided to take the time to give me compliments and to read more deeply about me!!!

best wishes for the future to you Anastasia!

ps: the photo is me near a castle in Valle D'Aosta,Italy....the way I lived the experience at least!!!! In my own world!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Today's emotion and delirium!

I was transforming my new video into the proper file for youtube, and this can take many minutes so I ended up switching on the TV ( It is very rare that i watch TV!!!!) and the first channel which is the Danish DR was showing a TV documentary about this family in Kurdistan who didn't learn to walk erect, cannot stand up but they walk on 4 (hands and feet).

It was emotional and almost made me cry, to see, these troup and doctors following the family who is being laughed at by the people of their village, who totally treat them as outsiders and make fun of them.The science has daughters and sonn't yet understood how it can be that mother and father can walk properly but the 4 daughters and son ( who must be around 30 years old)can't.
At the end the documentary was showing, how thanks to the assistance of doctors and rehabilitating therapies, the 4 people can now stand up and walk almost like any other adult in the world. It was touching to see them suffering and then to see their happiness and pride where they were making their first steps!!!!

By the way the video I was putting on youtube while watching this video does not talk about them. It talks about one of my favourite TV series "LOST" and it is my first attemps to use green key-chromer( I bought the green textile a few days ago!) and I suggest you go and check out! I am on the Lost island!
here it is!

Monday, January 19, 2009

How will 2009 be?

Some years, things haven´t gone so well to me. Like a disaster…for example 2007 was a year to forget for me.2007 has been a year in which not only I was confused about my abilities but I also met, sincerely speaking, people that were a negative influence, that drained out not only my energy but also my happiness.
I, in fact worked full-time for an American company headquartered in Montecarlo from November 2006 until May 2007 and although I think it is better to avoid mentioning the name on the Internet, this company who organizes top-level congresses all over the world, exploits its employees and literally brainwashes them with psychological pressures. The director(and owner),his wife and the office manager who is their best friends, are real psychos, so stereotyped that it seems like they are coming directly out of some weird movie. One of those where people get tortured or killed and there is no real explanation for that.And the tortured have no humanity.
By the way, sometimes I stumble on the blog of the director of this company( yes because in his self-centered idea that he can “make it (all)happen” he pollutes the web with his wise advices on how to work your butt off and be a slave to work in order to have power and money. And his young disciples believe that.

So,weird but true, I believe that the rest of 2007 was somehow spoilt because I still had all these horrible memories of that place. I am not sure how I got stuck there for 6 long months, it was mostly for necessity but It took me another 4months to clean my soul from the toxins of that place.
How infective that can be.
Now I know, that one should avoid certain situations, you cannot really live with it, it will penetrate you and mark you, even if you block it, it will still affect you.

My 2008 was very good, actually totally the opposite of 2007.Could it be that after the rain there is always the rainbow? It was for me, and the rainbow shined so brightly that it actually managed to make me see 2007 as a way to understand myself better and to overcome a similar situation in the future.
The brightness of 2008, I could feel was so strong that I knew it would continue during 2009
In fact, 2009 already started well….I have good music contacts…my youtube experience is going to the next level(when this is confirmed I will make a post for sure!!!)and in some inspirational moments (should I call them thunders of light?) on the first week of 2009, I came up with a lot of ideas for new videos and new songs.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

The first post of my second-ever blog

Two years ago I decided to open a blog called "I will be the new madonna" here on blogger...although after a while I just realised I don't care about being the new madonna at all.Sounds pretty stupid.It was a title that had impact but what I am and what I want is quite different from what it sounded like.

I soon didn't have much to write on it,I think I had the wrong approach on the whole blog thig, I could not be spontaneous and really write whatever was going through my head, I was trying to find interesting things to write although now I think that everything that we live or write can be interesting really.And if it is spontaneous,it has a big value.

There is a huge value out there in the world,that few still own,and it is called SPONTANEITY.
Once I was much more spontaneous than I am now,let's say until I was 18 I could really say everything that was going through my head,not for braveness but really for some naivity.Without being mean.But I met people that really disliked me and misunderstood me for this somehow,quality.I think 60% of my classmates got angry with me at some point or another because I was speaking my mind. Many people don't like that you tell them the truth.They prefer comfortable lies.I found out this.
Nowadays I still cannot lie,I still cannot say comfortable lies.So what I do is,that I keep my mouth shut,and tell what I think,for real,only when I know someone well enough,or when this person opened up with me a lot of times.
I think I suffered of this quite a lot back when I was younger. Not being able to be oneself,because if you tell what you think you are blamed for it.Because what you said was not so nice according to them.And you are not anymore a child,so you have no excuses.

I still don't act like an adult.And now I immediately notice the people that are spontaneous.I recognize them and cherish them as rare and precious.